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[mangofandango]

I just talked to my fellow elementary school student teacher (the girl in my class who is student teaching at my elementary school for the 5 weeks that I am in the high school) and she was so excited and positive! And it rubbed off on me a little, but it also made me wish that my initial reaction to things was more positive like that. I mean, I've been walking around all scared and stressed about this, all the while knowing that once I start, I'll be fine and I'll learn and grow and it will be good for me, and I'll probably really like it. That's how big new things always are for me: I know I'll figure it out and be fine and have a good experience (well, whenever that's applicable), but I still start out with fear and dread. I get intensely anxious about things right before they start. But I wish I were one of those people who starts a new project excited and fresh and happy.

I guess the only way to be more positive is to embrace this as much as I can. So, for the record, because I know it even though I am scared: My practicum is starting tomorrow, and I will be fine. I will allow myself to be overwhelmed and freaked out, but this is going to be an amazing, positive experience even though it will be hard. This is what the whole program is about, and I know I'm going to like it once I get started.

So there, I am making an effort, see?