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[mangofandango]

I just talked to my fellow elementary school student teacher (the girl in my class who is student teaching at my elementary school for the 5 weeks that I am in the high school) and she was so excited and positive! And it rubbed off on me a little, but it also made me wish that my initial reaction to things was more positive like that. I mean, I've been walking around all scared and stressed about this, all the while knowing that once I start, I'll be fine and I'll learn and grow and it will be good for me, and I'll probably really like it. That's how big new things always are for me: I know I'll figure it out and be fine and have a good experience (well, whenever that's applicable), but I still start out with fear and dread. I get intensely anxious about things right before they start. But I wish I were one of those people who starts a new project excited and fresh and happy.

I guess the only way to be more positive is to embrace this as much as I can. So, for the record, because I know it even though I am scared: My practicum is starting tomorrow, and I will be fine. I will allow myself to be overwhelmed and freaked out, but this is going to be an amazing, positive experience even though it will be hard. This is what the whole program is about, and I know I'm going to like it once I get started.

So there, I am making an effort, see?

Comments

[scarsnsouvenirs.livejournal.com]

You sound so much like me in both of your posts today. and I know it's also easy to have realizations like this one, but still hard to get the worrying parts of your brain to agree. But at least you're starting out with optimism and perspective. Good luck! I'll be sending good vibes tomorrow, and I can't wait to hear how day 1 went.

[mangofandango.livejournal.com]

Thanks! I will be sure to let you know how it goes. One of the things we are required to do for the pracitcum is keep hour-by-hour notes on what we do all day...so I may end up doing something like copying days into LJ some of the time (maybe filtered to interested parties, or something.) Annnd I will try to stay calm. :)

[allypopsicle.livejournal.com]

i am actually really excited about student teaching, and i think partially it's because i did my observation at the same school. i know the kids' ability levels, and what they need to work on, so for me, writing lesson plans is somewhat easy. i think once you are there for a few days, you will feel a lot better about it.

good luck!