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I have scheduled 2 site visits to school libraries. One on Monday at a middle school, and one on Thursday at an elementary school. My first one is at 8 in the morning. I need to start adjusting my sleep schedule so that working in schools won't kill me. ;)

It has been nerve-wracking calling schools and setting up appointments, and thinking about doing this stuff for real. (I still have to get a high school appointment, but I left a message so hopefully I'll hear about that soon.) I was upset last night because at this point I feel like a total newbie fake without a clue, when it comes to thinking about actually having a job where I am in charge of a library and 20 kids at a time, but Ryan keeps reminding me that many people feel that way about starting things like this, when things start to get Real. I'm scared and it makes me question myself. But I think that's normal too.

I think visiting the schools will either help me feel better about things, or make me more nervous. Hopefully the 4 volunteer hours a week at schools this semester will help too. I know the practicum will probably teach me more than a year of theory work has ever done, it's just that I feel like I'm auditioning or something, and it's scary. Or like I just wandered into something and am in over my head.

I'm okay, just venting my nerves.

Meanwhile, this song ("All These Things That I've Done") makes me feel a lot better. :)